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Magpie [Damian Wayne] ([personal profile] iamverybadass) wrote2018-12-25 10:14 pm
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  1. Meeting his father for the first time (B&S 47-50)

  2. First time seeing the batcave/this child is feral (B&S 53-58)

  3. dear dad, here is a dead bird. do u like it?????? (B&S 72-73; 77-82)

  4. LOOK AT ME MOM (B&S 89-96)

  5. Damian says Fuck History (B: RRAG 33-34)

  6. SHOW HIM THE ZOMBIE (B: RRAG 40, context on 42)

  7. Damian says Fuck Ghosts!! (B: RRAG 51-56)

  8. Stop hitting yourself (B: RRAG 56-61)

  9. Breaking into the batcave and Tim's a jerk for no reason at ALL (B: RRAG 88-94)

  10. Alfred does my dad love me :(? (B: RRAG 98; 103. Minus continued Tim fight.)

  11. Nice job birdbrains (B: RRAG 124-131)

  12. DAMIAN OUT!! (B: RRAG 134-135)

  13. thx 4 the save dad (B: RRAG 226-228)

  14. BUT MOM :( (B: RRAG 229-232; 236-238

  15. Damian says Fuck Ambulances (Batman RIP; 145)

  16. Did we just watch Batman die??? (idk end of RIP, look for exploding stuff)

  17. Damian says FUCK NIGHTWING (BR 2009; #2 14-18)

  18. Did you just save my life? (BR 2009; #3 12-15)

  19. Geeze Dick I can fight blind :T (BR 2009; #4 18-21)

  20. Big Bro #3 SUCKS (BR 2009 #5 6-9)

  21. ffs jason THANKS A LOT (BR 2009 #6)

  22. Aren't you dead?(BR 2009 #8 22-23)

  23. This recovery arc sucks (BR 2009 #9 5-11, 15-18)

  24. but I like the status quo NOW (Br 2009 #10 15-18 [part for context])

  25. changed my mind; new spine sucks (BR 2009 #11 16-end)

  26. electrocution will solve this problem (BR 2009 #12 7-9)

  27. Moms suck (BR 2009 #12 14-18)

  28. Movie night with the fam (BR 2009 #20 start-5)

  29. Birthdays with Mom (BR 2011 #0 10)

  30. The last birthday with Mom (BR 2011 #0 11-15)

  31. no one cares about your dead parents Dad (BR 2011 #1 7-12)

  32. And I didn't kill anyone! (BR 2011 #1 16-20)

  33. Quality time with Dad (BR 2011 #2 9)

  34. Damian says FUCK CHESS (BR 2011 #3 3-9)

  35. This is fine (BR 2011 #3 10-19)

  36. Dad you SUCK (prelim Ducard background) (BR 2011 #4 13-17)

  37. With Ducard (BR 2011 #4 20-21; #5 5 to #6 3)

  38. Thank fuck my dad is Batman (BR 2011 #7 start-8)

  39. Double tap (BR 2011 #7 11-end)

  40. A moral discussion (BR 2011 #8 13-end)

  41. We're not so different you and I, Tim (BR 2011 #10 15-19)

  42. Jason talks to his furniture (BR 2011 #11 start-7) NTS3

  43. Big brothers aren't all bad (BR 2011 #12 8-9)

  44. y. you aren't my real dad nightwing (BR 2011 #12 17)

  45. goddamn bounty hunters (BR 2011 #13 13-16)

  46. Do you even know what selfishness means? (BR 2011 #14 18-20)

  47. It's not me who needs protecting... It's the 4 highly trained and experienced adults!! (BR 2011 #15 start-11)

  48. Damian says fuck this murder in particular (BR 2011 #15 19-#16 15)

  49. for FUCK'S entire sake Joker (BR 2011 #16 16-end)

  50. Well this is nothing but nightmare fuel (Batman 2011 #17 start-7)

  51. fuck (Batman 2011 #17 8-15, through to end for misc cutaway scenes)

  52. what the fuck is a "game"? (Red Hood 2011 #17 13, 15)

  53. Todd's sad attempt at being a big brother (Red Hood 2011 #17 4-5)

  54. Jason's receding hairline (Batman 2016 #16 16)

  55. Artistry (Implied canon, montage)

  56. Violin practice (Implied canon, montage)

  57. You trust people. That's what makes you you. (NW 2011 #17)

  58. Trust me, they're a curse (not canon; loosely based on this)

  59. MEMORY

  60. MEMORY

  61. MEMORY

  62. MEMORY

  63. MEMORY

  64. MEMORY



TAKEN
  1. guess who's got a NEW SPIIIINE (BR 2009 #8 18): Write Up | IC thread

  2. Shut up and let me train you Jon (SS #6 5-12) Writeup | IC thread

  3. Are you using my hand for a tissue :/ (GA #7 7-14) Writeup | IC thread

  4. And that's how I learned how to dispose of a body (Reference, SS #1 14; AoSS #6 5) Writeup | IC thread

  5. There's a new Batman in town (B&R 2011, Annual #1) Writeup | IC thread

  6. Time to fuck off, Tim! (B&S 66-70) Writeup | IC thread TBD

  7. Forest training (implied canon) Write up | IC thread TBD

  8. Boss baby (BR 2009 #10 3-5) Writeup | IC thread TBD

  9. sup granddad. fuck you. i'm out. (B: RRAG 76-77; 79-83) Writeup | IC thread TBD

  10. Family Portraits (BR 2011 #10 5-8) Writeup | IC thread TBD

  11. This is NOT my order and I hate you (Batman 2016 #16 11-13 pre-Bruce's outburst)

  12. Brothers beWARE! (BR 2011 #10 11-13)

  13. Dads >>> Moms (B: RRAG 182-184)

  14. Torture lessons with Ducard (BR 2011 #6 16-end)

  15. who cares about you dad AM I STILL ROBIN??? (BR 2009 #16 29-end)

  16. TEMPLATE Writeup | IC thread


    17. https://www.random.org/lists/
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Memory 19 - CW Child Abuse

[personal profile] iamverybadass 2020-01-15 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Relevant page for reference; note the memory is not this verbatim and is only a montage of his early birthdays. The panels of training in between are not part of this specific memory. ]

It's Damian's 6th birthday. He's lying flat on his back, dazed and winded while his mother smiles down at him. He considers trying to rise, but the bo staff pressing between his ribs makes him think better of it. "Happy birthday, Damian," she says fondly. "You lose."

The scene blurs. It's his 7th birthday and he's crashing down onto the rough mat of the training ring dazed once more. The world is dim and hazy—is he passing out? Through it he can hear the murmur of his mother wishing him another happy birthday, but it's "You lose" that rings clearly in his ears before the world goes dark again.

A new scene snaps into focus. He's 8 today, and his mother is pressing the blade of knife into his cheek, her arm wrapped tightly around his neck and shoulders. He knows there's no way for him to get out of this without taking on unacceptable damage. She'd never consider it a worthy victory. He grits his teeth while she chuckles into his ear, "Happy birthday, Damian. You lose."

The memory warps again, and he's 9 today. His mother smiles fondly at him, and he can't help but feel a surge of pride over the cut on her cheek. He is not the only one that bled today. Still, as she shifts to take the pressure off of his sore ribs and smiles down at him, the frustration of his new failure starts to sink in.

"Happy birthday, Damian," she begins. He doesn't try to stifle the growl that rises in his throat, and her smile grows warmer. "You lose."



Impact to Talon
  • He understands that these were yearly matches against his mother. He was fighting to earn the right to know who his father is.
  • He did receive other gifts, typically weapons or advancement into new training.
  • Even as objectively badly as he knows she's treated him, she's his mom. And he loved and trusted her, especially during the time this memory is from.
  • Reconciling this treatment with the treatment he's grown accustomed to in Imeeji is UNCOMFORTABLE. He knows that his unit and friends will think it's wrong, but it feels very normal in the memory itself. This is his mother, and he knew/believed at the time that she loved him. She treats him so fondly even when he's lost, so it feels to him like he's wrong or ungrateful for thinking this is or even might be wrong now. What if she really was trying to help him? What if she had good reasons for it? It's just going to be hard to him to process this one as wrong because of how caring she acts even when beating the shit out of him.
  • And, again, she's his mom and he's a literal child who loved her.
Edited 2020-01-16 20:53 (UTC)
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